jennifer i understand what you are talking about. i experienced depression six months before i was diagnosed. i went to a psychiatrist . he gave me ritalin and within hours, i was out of my deep funk. this was the only time i used it. i tried a number of other anti-depressants and none worked. finally, i tried an old anti-depressant, trazidone. it worked!!!! i now take 2 at bedtime and have no depression and sleep much better than i had before. don't dispare and don't be afraid to seek help. hope this helps. let me know how things are going? murph brown