The bottom line to you finding help is that you find someone who TRULY, FROM THEIR HEART- LOVES YOU. If you have no family member to call on I recommend you try a phone call to l-800-759-0700 and ask the counselor (who will be someone who does care) for specific, local help to be an advocate for you and assist you in this urgent time of need. My heart aches to hear of anyone being subjected to such daily ordeals....please know there are those who do care and will help, but you must use what you can to reach out and let them know. Contacting this list is a first right move and I will be thinking of you and hope you do find someone soon...... May God be with you in your struggle.