Wendy The deciscion to declare yourself disabled a is a personal decision between you and your nerologist.I understand from your letter that your employer knows of your problem Have you discussed with them your limatations and concerns? Although the employeer has the legal obligation to accomadate .. If the condition developed during your period of work your STM and LTM will be in force . DO NOT QUIT!!! If your feeling afraid, remember that stress , and anxiety can cause confusion and memory problems.. Dont be afraid to trigger your disability package when you feel the jobs getting to you, thats what its for..Keep a diary of the problems your experienceing on a daily basis. You can be released at any time by the company for any reason but PD . Document all dicussions with your employer.I understand your fear I triggered my disability last Oct. when I felt I wasnt doing my job to my employers expectations. Because this is such an emotioal issue please feel free to contact me . at [log in to unmask] or ICQ 1437786 Andrew