Dear Jennifer: I can relate to so much of your expressed feelings about the loss of your husband. My husband and I have been together 24 yr. and were "married" the day we met - since then it has been 24hr/day - 7 day/wk relationship for us too. I know what you mean by thinking "time is short" - I too, am 20 yrs younger - so many similarities - I can share the hollow feeling you must feel - want to assure you though, that he hasn't taken 90% of who you were away, it is all still there , though you may have to take some time to realize it - also, I know he hasn't really left you- there is an eternity available together ( I don't happen to subscribe to the "death do us part" part....) Hope you don't feel my thoughts to be an intrusion..... will be most willing to share more , if you want.......anytime at [log in to unmask] Marie Carepartner to husband 70/l3