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Perhaps I can shed some light on why some of us become impatient when what is a delight in moderate doses becomes excessive. I have been enjoying participating here for some three years now, and it has truly provided me with what amounts to a post-graduate course in all the devious and miserable nuances of PD. I take care of my husband and share his misery. This and the CARE list have each provided help and needed solace many times over and I appreciate the varying personalities of the contributors very much. Three years ago my husband was driving our car, taking care of the household finances and home maintenance. He was walking and was able to eat his meals like an adult instead of an 18 month old child. And he was still the same companion to me, and father to our sons, than he had been for over 50 years. In those days I could fully enjoy the posted nonsense that spiced the list and periodically took over like crabgrass.I confess I contributed my share on occasion. Our members are witty people and laughter is good for us. But PD does not stand still and I am depressed as I see my dear companion disintegrating before my eyes. His muscles no longer do his bidding with any reliability, he is in almost constant pain, and his once sharp mind has become confused. I now must take a daily dose of the SSRI, Paxil to function normally. Lassitude overwhelms me in spite of the anti-depressant. A year ago, before Paxil soothed the rough edges of my life, I was easily irritated and snappish. These days I just sigh and wearily delete when the volume becomes excessive. I am not alone. Those who complain may seem to be arbitrary, rigid,and intolerant fussbudgets to those who see us as spoil- sports determined to stamp out fun. But many of us are like me, too overwhelmed by our own problems to complain. Its easier for some to leave when the ratio of chaff to the grain of useful information becomes unprofitable. Nevertheless, I look forward to each edition of the Parkinsaw chronicles and read them to Neal to brighten his painful days. It is only when the fun becomes repetetive and excessive that the pleas for respite break out Martha Rohrer CG for Neal 79/14 [log in to unmask]