Dear Paul: I too am 49, but it is my husband who has the PD (l3 yr. now). We are soooo close after 24 yr. of marriage that I actually FEEL the Pd with him at times - as much as that is possible (but then who knows my future?) . Upon listening to your letter I would like to greatly encourage you to not let the fear and worries of the future overburden your heart to the point that you let the PD overtake you. The strength of your spirit will be a big determining factor of how fast and how devastating your condition becomes. Perhaps a visit once and a while to Parkinsaw or laught out loud with a non Pd joke or situation will help you realize you can still enjoy...........I realize some have difficulties with the mechanics of the delete button - but technology does exist to overcome most anything along that line - I for one have learned how to proceed thru the list with great speed and pass up the topics of no interest at the time - but next week I realize I may just need to fantasize a little about other things or places..... Now that the computer world has got everyone acting on everything at the speed of light - we really seem to think a l/2 minute delay is an eternity........ The PD forced my husband and I to slow down - and though we know the rat race going on all around us , we can now appreciate the wonderfullness of a slower paced lifestyle - and perhaps the benefits of PD "bringing us to our knees"?,,,,,,,,,,,, Just some thoughts.........Marie carepartner for husband 70/l3