Jane, Your web page brought back vivid memories of my Parkinson's experience. I was 43 at the time of the diagnosis and had 2 teenage children. My husband had died 6 months before so I really wallowed in self pity. I can remember shaking my fist at the ceiling and screaming to my dead husband, "Why did you leave me when I needed you so much." Like you I came to grips with the situation and returned to substitute teaching temporarily until I found a full time job. I was lucky that I worked for the Fed. government as they put up with me until 1993 when I retired on disability. I had a pallodotomy in 1996 and it helped some for about a year and a half. The pallodotomy operation was a piece of cake compared to your experience. I agree that the screwing on of the halo was extremely painful, but that was the only discomfort I had. The rest was kind of fun except at the end when my speech suddenly was affected. Fortunately, my speech returned after 4-6 weeks. I'm gong to put a list of questions together for all the nice lovely people who responded to my query. Until then Gratefully, Joan Holliday