No Don, you are not the only one who feels that way. I am 52 and only two years ago was I diagnosed. I can't walk around my front yard and care for my plants because there is a slight hill and i lose my balance. Can't mend a sock. Cooking is getting harder (stirring w my right hand almost impossibl and lifting things in and out of the oven is scary) Anyway, don't give up your determination. You are an inspiration. -----Original Message----- From: Don McKinley <[log in to unmask]> To: [log in to unmask] <[log in to unmask]> Date: Thursday, September 30, 1999 9:38 AM Subject: LIST: you know what hurts me is i could not go to the PD walk or go to the sentient hearings. or go on a vac. hear how alot that do things. this is the first time i ever had help with cutting my grass. how can i tell PWP'S do some of their own work. i am tiered of mom and my daughters saying dad look at your age and how advanced you are with your PD. heck i am not that old. PETER F. is older. i can walk 50 feet then got to rest. my legs scream with pain. i will be darned i will use any thing i am going to win this battle. are there other that are told you can't do this or that. i don't feel old. i want to buy one of those things that pick up leaves mom said it would be cheaper to hire it done yes but i won't feel happy over it. let some body else do my work. can't get them to under stand how i feel. all i hear is dad don't do this or that. work just a little then rest tomorrow what about what got to be done then. you just can't say tomoreo heck just can't spell am i alone on feeling like this? you are the only ones i can talk to. nobody under stands any more on how i feel. i was never the one tot ask for help i gave it. it's not fair am going to try come heck or high water. i am sorry i am on the pullet again just got to get it off of my mind thanks. I.Y.Q DON