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At 13:29 1999/12/21 -0500, you wrote: >One often sees messages commenting on how brave >a PWP is, how well he is doing etc... i remember re-meeting friends who hadn't seen me for some time who expressed a wish 'that janet was doing better' and said i had 'courage' dealing with my 'fate' my sister piped up and snapped: "she doesn't have courage! she has Parkinson's!" i laughed in agreement! it's true i don't feel the need for 'courage' i don't feel i have been 'afflicted' i don't feel the need for anyone's 'sympathy' i feel that everything that happens to me [good bad or indifferent] is part of my learning while i am here and my perception of good bad or indifferent is purely and solely my choice i have the choice of looking at pd as an 'insult' or a 'challenge' which choice will produce an upbeat result in me? which choice will produce a defeated result in me? which choice will enable me to learn more and to understand more? which choice might help me figure out some mysteries while i'm here? i was physically born and thus must physically die my physical time here is limited no choice about that! how can i be so 'positive' about my having pd? easy what kind of silly cigarettes have i been smoking? none any defeatist negative sour despairing thoughts i had about pd [after going through the obligatory 5 stages of mourning] were cognitive distortions i.e. were out and out lies to myself due in part to the brain chemical imbalance which is so frequently part and parcel of pd i take sinemet to 'handle' my physical 'abnormalities' i take prozac to 'handle my cognitive 'abnormalities' this is my life i love every minute of its reality i will not waste a second of it on illusions janet janet paterson 52 now / 41 dx / 37 onset http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/Village/6263/ 613 256 8340 po box 171 almonte ontario canada k0a 1a0