Hi folks, Just to let you all know that you are the greatest FAMILY anyone could ask for I am getting SO much support- thank you for being there. I couldn't possibly lay on that log like a dead ol' bump for long. I've made it back to the snail stage already. We (the part-time caregiver team and I) have wrapped the presents - PD-style- hung the stocking by the chimney, by jim'ney. Ther's MORE.. get this: I {not "we"} am baking APPLE PIE for Santa and his "thirtry-two feet and eight little tails of white".. So now I have to roll over into the TWAH (that's a new Beckerism) - XMAS - KWANZAA - JOYEUX NOEL - HAPPY NEW YEAR - BLESSED RAMADAN - may the Holy Spirit bless you mode. I'm going to try and get to a candlelight service at a little tiny community church tonight - First though, I would like to share something very personal and very special...I hope you like it. I did manage to sing the solo to Rock of Ages three times (Dec 10 -12 ) in tuxedo, for my chorus's Holiday Concert. I read this narration first: BEING JEWISH IN DECEMBER Being Jewish, December always provides me with the joys of the Festival of Lights, or Chanukah. Even as a small child, the excitement of eight days of gift exchanges, the magic of lighting the bright, colored candles of the Chanukah candelabra, or Menorah, and the tradition of singing joyous Hebrew songs of praise all gave me a special appreciation of my unique, ancient, Old Testament-based roots,. Growing up in Providence, Rhode Island, Christian-oriented society that surrounded me marked December with displays of beautiful lights, Christmas carols on the radio throughout Christmas Eve, family gatherings on Christmas Day, relief from the pressures of school work, and most of all, a special spark and excitement that only Christmas brings. Many front windows in my own neighborhood were filled with silhouettes of tall trees and their shimmering lights. While all this was going on, my brothers and I gathered night after night in the kitchen, to eat supper with our parents, and to exchange gifts. My mother's sister, my uncle and my first cousins were celebrating in the house next door, while my mother's parents also were celebrating, in their apartment directly over ours. Delicious potato pancakes, or latkes, made from Old World recipes that have survived for generations, were being enjoyed in all three households. These were served piping hot, with liberal amounts of either apple sauce, or sour cream. Gradually, the glow of the menorah, with one new candle added each night after sundown, became so bright that electric lights were virtually unnecessary. Knowing that the miraculous ancient Temple oil burned for eight days instead of one, my brothers and I watched the candles like hawks, seeing which one would last the longest, and wondering and even betting on which candle would be the last to go out! Somehow, in our Rhode Island menorah, a modern Chanukah miracle seemed to be very , very possible. Ivan Suzman, Portland, Maine December 7th, 1999.