Gina Cass. wrote:
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> Dear Hilary:
> Thank you for your lovely bit of humor.  I really enjoyed it.

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Dear Gina.
 I think that is what keeps me sane. If I couldn't laugh , I would cry.
And  I mostly laugh at myself - but sometmes I laugh at others too. It
is not a cruel laugh,  that rejoices in anothers downfall, it's just - I
would laugh at myself if this happened to me , so I'm laughing at you
this time - next time you can laugh at me.  I think I told you about
my   friend Rosanne. She had polio at the age of 5, and was in and out
of hospital  all the years I knew her. She taught me to laugh. I
remember we were down at the seaside on vacation, and we had seen a
funny movie and were laughing and she fell out of the taxi -- and just
went on laughing....She had more boyfriends than anyone I knew, and
everyone just loved her. She married and has 3 girls. I haven't seen her
for maybe 15 years, and don't even know on which continent she lives..
But she gave me my life, and showed me the way to live it.

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o PD? I have this rash, I don't know but it covers my face I never had
> anything like this before and in my hair.  It is like this "Dan the Dandruff"
> the drandruff.

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I even have dandruff in my eyebrows!

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 My Memory is gone I mean GONE.  If I don't get a hard copy I'm
> lost.
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Memory, you say?
sorry , can't remember what that is!!!!!!!!!

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 I can't drive, About half the food reaches my mouth and I have had
> exemplary manners now just hose me down.

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You should have been at the luncheon on the first day of the PAN forum
in Washington in June.  The hotel couldn't have chosen a worse meal..
First course was a wonderful onion soup, totally encrusted in a thick
layer of cheese - if you could get the cheese off the top of the soup,
the effort produced enough jet propulsion to launch the cheese crust
across the table.
Second course: Slivers of chicken on a bed of greens - each piece of
chicken about  twice bite size, and each green about 2 inches by 6
inches.  Anne and I looked at each other and laughed and laughed and
laughed.  At the end of that meal, all the PWPs were starving, and I
think the hotel staff used bull dozers to clear  the eating area!

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 I walk along and stop, what is stop
> in the middle of walking.  No one explained even a small portion of this to
> me.  child-adolessent-adult I have a happy go lucky attitude, I have toys and dolls
> and bears, cribs etc. and people who give me pleasure.  I have worked hard to
> sweep away the pain and whatever happens I will continue to be happy.

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And therein lies the secret.  You can't fight it, it's there  to stay -
but you sure can reduce it in size - when you laugh at it - laugh at
eveything, and everybody.

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 My Teddies, Dollies, Elmo's, Cows, Pigs, Moose and
> a few Beanie Babies(I really can't see the big thing about them but I needed
> to get a few, anyway, they bring me joy.  All of them do I talk with them like
> my children.  I have obtained a Port a-crib, a cradle, I had a ships trunk I
> have wagon, and wheel Barrows, chairs, gliders, you name it, they have it.  So
> do the dogs and cats.  I find they treat me better than
> most humans.

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Of course they do, because they don't have any axe to grind.  They are
there for you and they will be what you make of them. And you love them
- so of course they love you too.

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....and so do I .  Because I don't know you, but I feel I do know you.
And you make me think about these things and understand things about
myself  when I try to explain them to you.
Thank you.

Hilary

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  I only have one favor and for the most part it has been done.,
> but if I need an answer to a question please answer the question. Maybe in a
> way I could understand.  Something happened in the last 2 years, to my brain
> it is like a brain drain, a nervouse breakdown.  Thank you for listening to
> me, you are very important to my recoverey
> TTFN
> Gina
> Hugs to those who want them
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